can i ?

Can I drink? Because I can't sleep. I had weird dreams and I woke up all in sudden when I was sleeping, oftenly.

Can you get me drunk? Because I don't think I can face this yet. I have no more strength to be sad but I am still;and I can't help with it.

Enough to say. Can you get me a drink so that I can get drunk and forget the sad thing for a moment?

Merry the Christmas!

Jeng jeng!! Santa Clause is coming to town!!
Santa Clause has came to my house!

423pm.I got my new handphone.Woooohoo. Early Christmas present from daddy. Thank you, dad.

Indeed

What is Orientalism? Instead of writing for my log, I sat infront of the laptop and think about something else; something that have bother me since the beginning of this semester. Past, present, future. Why was it so and so and why it is not so and so now? What kind of path way should or will I go in the future? How can he/she like this and that? How can this/ it be like this and so, etc.

Its already week three, time flies. What else can I say. In a while, we'll be saying goodbye to each other and we would probably not know when are we going to meet again. Pathetic. Once, there's someone ever told me that "when its time, you'll know how to face this and you'll start cherish everything and everyone around you". That's true. I kind of start feeling that and doing that too. Yet, somehow; I feel tired of cherish and caring stuff which is only, 'one-sided'. Meaning, most likely, you are the only one who feeling this way. Well, somehow, it works for me. As in, I couldn't bother that much as I have more important stuff to care about. Just that, the feeling isn't good when you started to pause for a while during work and all sort of things came into your mind; that it could actually depressed you and make you think a lot. Guess everyone will have to face it. That's right, when its time, you'll know how to handle it. How I handle this now? Pray.

Been dreaming all kind of weird things these days. Sometimes, would woke up with tears on my pillow and somehow I still feel weird and sad after I woke up. Been hiding all kind of unhappy feelings all these while as I need to be or at least pretend to be strong infront of some people. To let them know that I'm fine. Yet, in the end of the day, who knows my feeling? Myself, Julia Chong. Who else? Of course, God knows. Who else? Those who thought that I am fine, do they? Not knowing why, I learnt and I actually kind of good in ignoring these kind of feelings. Pretending that I'm fine. Yet, I realized that, I couldn't stop from doing works. Once stop, 'they' will come and haunt me. Then I would think "why is this/ why was this happen to me?!".

I have no idea how can I deal with this yet I don't really know who should I consult to. As, indeed, I have no time to deal with all this. Indeed, I just noticed that I actually not feeling happy all this while; since the day I reach Miri. Indeed, I am tired. Indeed, I am unhappy.

Quote for the sem (sem 1, 2009) & Summer 2008

Its already the end of the sem; and here it is, the quotes for the sem and some from summer 2008 :)

Additional 声音 (Chong,J.2009).

"After I have de re, in my eyes, I only see you; there's no other people that I could see" (How,C.,H.2009).

Ah Moni = harmony? (Wong,J.2009).

Ah Thai (Wong,J.2009).

Aki+lame= Akame (Chong,J.2009).

Aki: "那个蜘蛛吃什么到那么大只?"
Del: "你没有看到lab的苹果都被咬了一口meh?" (Chong&Tan,2009).

Black hand behind the scene (Lee,W.,L. 2009).

Can’t defeat the sleepy-ness (Chong,J.2009).

Compayre (Chieng,F.2009).

De re (How,C.,H.2009).

Die thing (How,C.,H. 2009).

Esther is very fragile (Chai,K.,S.2009).

Fren-chi-Fri-se (How,C.,H. 2009).

Girl, girl, boleh kawan sama kamu? (How,C.,H.2009).

Hear-able (Chong,J.2009).

Her suggestion is to ask us to think about the suggestion based on her problem (Ting,M.,M.2009).

Here is one year faster (Nanta,A.,S.2009).

"I cannot feel anything, that is how bad I feel" (Wong,J.2009).

I know I’m superstar (Yip,B.2009).

I love you more when I miss you (Leong,A.2009).

Kiamsiap (Ting,M.,M.2009).

Lame Lame Da (Yong,J.2009).

Lame-Mi-Mi (Chong,J.2009).

Love is blind but I’m not blind (Saputra,T.,K.2009).

Masculinity (Ting,M.,M.2009).

MCCA is evil and it REPRESENTS redundant-ness (Chong,J.2009).

McD (Wong,J.2008). – McD= TMD

Moni (How,C.,H.2009).

Ngiau ji (Chong,P.,X.2009).

Ngiau ji-ness (Chong,P.,X.2009).

Now I am really si-pitch-less (Chong,J.2009).

Nowsaday (Chieng,F.2009).

Perasan-ness (Chong,J.2009).

Piak-son (Yip,B.2009).

sei ye (How,C.,H.2009).

Slimming+spa=splimming (How,C.,H.2009).

Walau eh! Jia ni gui! (Ting,M.,M.2009).

长气-ness (Chong,J.2009).

Fikir baca (Chong,J.2009). -Fikir baca= 想念

Four 块 (Lee,W.,L.2009).

还是你 expired 了? (How,C.,H.2009).

"Julia: 剩下的tissue你拿去啦.
Mei Mei: 不用.我只需要一张.因为我只有一张嘴。
Julia: 显!!!" (Chong & Ting, 2009).

"Julia: 那, kacheng坐哪里？
Jess: kacheng坐在椅子上 啦!" (Chong & How, 2009).

Juliana 一定喝很多罐头水 (Chong,J.2009).

Mao 有(Chong,P.,X.2009).

Men’s grooming 是什么？男人结婚用的哈？ (Chong,P.,X. 2009).

"Mei Mei: 片子的来源..
Julia: penipu??" (Ting & Chong, 2009).

Melame 是讲自己 lame (Ting,M.,M.2009).

你几点pre? (How,C.,H.2009) -pre= presentation

Pick me, pick me= 猪我，猪我 (Chong,J.2009). - Pig =猪

她的华语很high tech (Chong,J.2009).

我跟Janet 讲,下次她长大就是那样 (Yip,B.2009).

我叫 Julamena Banana,被她打 (Yip,B.2009).

我看我要拿 bus 去学校 (How,C.,H.2009) -p/s: direct translation as- take bus to campus)

被墙壁吸去 (Tiong,J. 2009).

不是很热很热,只是很热 (Yong,J. 2009).

等下她剁剁剁你的屁股，剁到碎哦(How,C.,H.2009).

二块 (Yip,B.2009).

跟她又不是很熟 (Chong,J.2009).

黑糖+奶=黑奶(Wong,J.2009).

孔雀?一种病来的? (Yip,B.2009).

你不要lame啦!!! (How,C.,H.2009).

你毛有读? (Yip,B.2009).

你有看到你吗? (Chong,J.2009).

死赖不账 (How,C.,H.2009).

糖果歌 (Chong,J.2009).

我帮你拍，你喝奶 (How,C.,H.2009).

我不能顶我自己很丑 (How,C.,H.2009).

我的嘴巴会美吗? (Ting,M.,M.2009).

我看到我 (Chong,J.2009).

我是开罐王！(Teoh,S.,L.2009).

胰藏?姨丈不是啊姨的老公meh? (Wong,J.2009). -胰藏=pancreas

主的日子要到了 (Ting,M.,M.2008).

猪是怎么死的? 答案:笨死啦！(Wong,J.2008).


Sources (Alphabetically): Amanda Sura, Annabelle Leong, Belinda Yip, Chai Kim Seng, Chong Ping Xing, Delbert Tan, Ms. Fayrene Chieng, Janet Tiong, Jason Wong, Jessica How, Jimmy Wong, Julia Chong, Juliana Yong, Lee Wen Lin, Teoh See Ling, Ting Mei Mei, Tysna Kurniawan Saputra.

...

...原来在你心目中,我是那样的一个人

对此,我不懂可以说些什么. 因为我改不了你的想法

只是, 有点失望；因为你会那么想...

online

Its been more than a week we can't go onlie properly at home. Today, Jess and I went campus; one of the reason is purposely go online. We reached library and we did not get what we want. So, we were suggesting-- Go town, some where like Coffee Bean or Starbucks to online la!

After 'struggle' for a while, we finally went home and rushed to the bus stop again to wait for public bus. Guess what, after almost end of the sem, this is our first time riding a bus to town. Purposely to town to go online! De re said she is the most dedicated Curtin student because she purposely came to town just to online do her work! Aha!

We bought two drinks- Mocha Latte and Cafe Caramel. And De re also bought two pieces of cake. One of the cakes that she bought is Blueberry cheese cake; she said, because she know I like Blueberry cheese cake so she bought one. Awwwh :)

Its 837pm now. We've been here since 430pm and we are going back only at 12am! Wahahaha. Tomorrow is Sports Carnival and I'm only working as photographer next week during Volleyball match. And de re is participating tomorrow; and of course next week's Volleyball match. Good luck, How De Re :)

-.-

Its been ages sice I last blog-ed. Since that today is the last day of my holidays and I am going back to my busy life tomorrow, here I am now; thinking that I should write what happened yesterday night. What a 'memorable' day in my life! I told de re and she said this is too ----

The first thing came into my mind at that moment and after I came back home was- How?! How on earth could this happened to me?! #$%@!

Mum (to me) : Come lets pay and go home...

Me (to dad) : Dad..pay...

Dad (to mum) : (After looking at his pocket)... Aren't the money is with you...

Mum (looking at me) : The handbag?

Me: ....Huh?? Oooooooh sh*t!!! is in the other car!!

How on earth this could ever happen to me?! Went shopping without bringing money?! Mum asked to drive her car when dad and I were already in his car. We were waiting in the car while she was locking the door. I was half way messaging my friends and yea; apparently now I'm the one who can't multitask, when I'm tired. What dad said before we moved to another car was--

Dad: Take the bag and keys...

Then he was already outside the car. While I'm still messaging...

Me: Okay, wait wait..Almost done...

After I finished texting, I put my phone aside and what I remembered was, the sentence "...keys". I took the keys and I came out of the car. Dad locked the car and we went in mum's car; leaving the handbag in his car. My purse, handphone, mum's purse, etc, were all in the handbag. We did not realized this until we decided to buy. Dad brought his cash so he has no problem in purchasing any stuff. Just that his 'extra' money are all in mum's handbag. And don't mentioned about me; I always gave my purse and phone to mum or even friends when we go shopping. That's why I didn't feel weird when I was walking with empty hands!!

At the end, dad bought his stuff but mum and I-- We didn't buy ourselves anything. Then, from this incident, I realized two things. First, my mind can't function properly if I'm damn tired. In the other words, I can't multitask when I'm tired; and is doing other stuff in the same time. This wasn't the first time, even that afternoon itself; after I came back from medical checkup, mum cooked us lunch and guess what? I put a spoon on my plate and I put a folk on dad's plate, expecting that we would use this to eat our food?! Ooh gosh! I even forgot to wear my watch when I went out with my friends after that! This has never happened to me! Second, I should really adopt a habit-- bring my own bag next time!

I don't really know what happened to me yesterday. My mind can't work perfectly the whole day. Yet, what I'm clear is that, I am REALLY VERY tired! Slept at two and woke up at six; and went shopping and do stuff non stop the whole day!

-.-

Psychosis

"ngui pulow kerng"

"ngai oi song chi sor"

"ngai me di dao apa macam"

"ngai hao stress!"

(What happened today)

SAVE ME!